Thursday, October 7, 2010

Sea of Tears

DISCLAIMER: I am not currently depressed. I am okay. But I do have a history of depression and I think it's okay to share what it's like when those feelings start to overwhelm me.

Sea of Tears

darkness wraps it's tendrils around my mind
as the smile slides off my face
into a sea of sadness and fears
that threatens to swallow me whole

I feel myself falling
slowly being engulfed by the salty waves
until the will to fight is extinguished
and pain replaces my breath

I am no longer struggling
merely drifting with the motions
in the sea of tears


Papa D said...

Thanks for sharing this, Patty. I wish everyone, and especially all church members, understood depression better. At the most basic level, my faith and hope is that depression and other things like it are covered by the 2nd Article of Faith as the effects of the Fall brought on by Adam's transgression - and what people do and think and are in the throes of depression and other things like it are embraced and redeemed within the Atonement of Jesus Christ.

Mama D said...

Phenomenal imagery! Patty, you have a gift for words. Thanks for sharing your poem.

I have never been diagnosed with depression, but there have been times when I have been adrift in the sea of tears, within sight of the shore but still engulfed by the waves.

It *is* okay to have these feelings. I think what counts is what we do about it, how we survive the waves, and how we help others once we finally reach dry ground safely. As Ray said, the atonement of Christ covers more than we might think.