I'm bummed. And feeling very vulnerable and kinda rejected. Not that it's anybody's fault... it's just the way things go sometimes.
One of my resolutions for this year is to reach out and try to be more social and invite people into my home. I started to plan one in January but the ward game night kinda trumped it. I didn't give up though. I picked a date for February and invited a few different couples to come over for a game night. Tonight was that night. Unfortunately every single couple has had to cancel. I'm not blaming them, and I don't want them to feel guilty. They all had very good reasons. But it still made me sad.
I'm trying hard to make lemonade out of lemons: at least I don't have to clean my house quite as thoroughly as I would for guests; I can also sit around in my jammies all night now. And now I can make up a can of cinnamon rolls for breakfast since they won't get eaten tonight...
But I have to admit that I feel a bit rejected and like a failure. It's probably just the hormones talking (very probable.) I'm trying to give myself a pep talk and tell myself that it's really not ME, that people would probably (hopefully) actually enjoy playing games at my house. I just haven't been able to convince myself of that yet.
So maybe tonight will be a pity party instead of a game night party. Maybe not quite as much fun but there'll be less to clean up!
But now I'm also looking towards next month: anyone want to join us for games and snacks? Or would a potluck lunch work better for you? If you're interested, let me know!