I've often thought about what exactly brought about my real conversion to the gospel, and the resulting growth that has come. I can't pinpoint one single incident or moment when I had an "ah-ha" experience, but I can look back and see the Lord dragging me along step by step until I was willingly following and eagerly looking up to see Him and watch to see where He wants me to go.
One thing struck me as I was reading in the Doctrine & Covenants today. As I read D&C 6:14 this is what stood out "blessed art thou for what thou hast done; for thou has inquired of me, and behold, as often as thou hast inquired thou hast received instruction of my Spirit. If it had not been so, thou wouldst not have come to the place thou are at this time."
Well! Here's at least part of the answer to my ponderings! I've known for quite awhile that part of my nature is to be very inquisitive about things. I love to learn about everything around me (and about places and things I'll never see!) I just hadn't connected that tendency with how I've come to where I am today in the gospel.
As I read this verse it felt like God was speaking directly to me, letting me know that it has been my desire to know that has brought about much of my growth. As often as I have wondered and prayed about the church and the principles of the gospel, as often as I have been willing to repent and do what the Lord has asked, I have been blessed with His spirit. Line upon line, precept upon precept He has brought about my conversion.
Now I know to add to my prayers help in keeping this desire to know and to do. I want to continue to be brought to places that the Lord has in store for me because I've found that they are so much better than the places I've considered for myself.