Monday, August 10, 2009
I've thought about it long and hard, and I believe the superpower I'd really like to have is unending energy. It seems like everything lately keeps sucking the life out of me. I've tried eating better, exercising almost every day, getting more sleep... nothing seems to help. I almost feel like I had a limited amount of energy to spend throughout my entire time here on earth and I blew through most of it in my earlier years!! What a waste!
On Saturday evening I got a call from the dear sister who was supposed to teach on Sunday... letting me know that her entire family is sick and she might not be able to make it to church the next afternoon to teach. Gulp! Wouldn't you know that this happens on the month that my Education Counselor is out of the country??!! Normally she's the one who would take that call and worry about subbing, but not this time! I really thought after last Sunday's lesson that I was off the hook for awhile. I had breathed my sigh of relief and was getting back to normal without the thought of teaching a lesson hanging over my head. I really believe God has quite the sense of humor. Funny thing is, I knew as soon as I got the call that I would end up being the one to teach and that it was another learning experience for me. I'm sorry that our regular teacher and her family had to get sick for me to learn this lesson, but I'm glad that I felt a sense of calm and peace during most of the limited time I had to prepare.
Unfortunately, that peaceful, lovely feeling left almost as soon as I got up in front of the room. I stumbled my way through a lesson that was not easy to teach. And to make matters worse, the Relief Society room was about a bazillion degrees. I wasn't sure if it was the spirit being felt or if we were all just melting. I'm inclined to think it was the latter since my perception was that the lesson was a complete flop.
Oh well. At least it's done. I'm breathing another sigh of relief. Except now I'm a little on edge too... what else is going to be thrown my way unexpectedly? I wish I could say that I'll gracefully deal with whatever comes along, but the truth is that I'll probably still stumble and trip my way through it. I'm hoping that my willingness to endure and keep trudging along counts for something.
So for any of you who were tortured by having to hear two lessons from me in a row- I apologize. I'd love to infuse them with a lot more energy and interest, but as you can tell from the beginning of this post- I'm all out. Someone please wind me up again.