Friday, July 31, 2009

An update?

I don't even know what to write anymore. It feels like my life just keeps going non-stop with hardly a break to breathe. I know I'm not alone in this, but sometimes it feels overwhelming to be in charge of so many different things all at once. It's not like I'm someone who would naturally take on half of the stuff I'm required to do. It's just not who I am. I've never been a leader or the type to "take charge." I'm still kinda confused as to why I'm being asked to go so far out of my comfort zone for such a prolonged period of time and in so many different ways.

Some days I feel like I'm doing pretty good and have a good handle on things (that's probably just the pride talking!) and then I wake up and realize that I forgot to make the phone calls that needed to be made, or that I haven't even had time to consider what else needs to be done at home. I don't want to whine or complain because I love having this opportunity to serve and I love the sisters in our ward and would do anything for them. I just sometimes wish that the responsibility could be lifted for short periods of time so I could feel like a "normal" person again, and not feel like so many things depend on me. Or maybe just a break from all the extra "to-do" stuff would work (like getting new tires on my car, mopping up a flooded basement, more visiting teaching changes or preparing a lesson... okay, so the last two are kinda expected, but they're still in addition to everything else and are stressful!!)

Enough whining, I know. I'll probably feel better once this weekend is over. In the meantime, I'll try to enjoy each day and not just look forward to some day in the future when life might be less crazy.


Papa D said...

Whosever shall lose his life for my sake . . .

What you are doing, Patty, absolutely is for his sake.

Whenever you need to release tension, call Mama. She would love to talk - and we have nearly unlimited cell phone usage, so feel free to call, say "Call me" and wait for her return call. *grin*

Mama D said...

What Papa said... (grin)

I talked to my sister today. She is still getting used to her calling, and next week she gets to dress an endowed sister who passed away after a horrific car accident, the only member in her family. My sister said she is being asked to do things she never dreamed of doing before...

I know you have dealt with funerals and such already with your calling. I don't envy you wonderful and caring RS Presidents, but I truly am grateful for your service and love!

The Lord sure uses some interesting ways to challenge us to grow and become more like Him!

chelle said...

It sounds like you could use that fast forward button I was looking for the other day.
Hang in there. You're doing an amazing job. Maybe after this calling you can get a REALLY easy one. Not sure what that would be, but I am sure there is one lol. (if not maybe they could make one up just for you)

Steve and Jamie said...

I know you can't delegate everything, but what you can--delegate!!!! That is why you have counselors, husbands, and friends, right? Please call me if you need help with anything this week. I'm actually going kind of crazy staring at the walls right now.